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Disclosure – 9/1/1997

Tuesday, March 18th, 2008

9/1/1997

0024 Ah crap…  The network still won’t work.  Well I broke my first promise tonight, got a little bit tipsy.  Damned if you do, damned if you don’t, what can I say.  Frat parties are frikkin weird; they’re empty one moment, and the next thing you know they’re overflowing.  Word to the wise, avoid the punch, I think I saw them make some.

1349 Had lunch here for the first time, the food is horrid.  I had a ham & cheese, and a grilled cheese (that I REFUSE to finish).  Also got a brownie, an OJ, and a root beer.  I haven’t finished those either, there’s more water than orange in this ‘juice.’  Guess I’ll have to get my books tomorrow, everything is closed today.  <shrug>  Laura called me up at 9am, but I guess I slept right through the phone ringing.  That sucks.  Would have been nice to wake up to her voice.  I called her back, we chit chatted for a bit… and she started to cry before I hung up.  There’s nothing I can do about it.  I told her about the frat party last night, not like I can keep it from her.  I have one goal here, to get my ass kicked out.  If getting drunk like mad does it, then so be it.  I do not want to be here AT ALL.

Back then I still believed that honesty was the best policy, that honesty made everything alright.  Soon I would learn that if you don’t make the mistake in the first place, there’s no reason for everything to not be alright.

Disclosure, Intro.

Sunday, March 16th, 2008

Back in 1997 I started going to college.  I was still dating my high school sweetheart, I had a good steady job, and I really didn’t want to go there.  That’s when I started writing.  Over the years I’ve kept a journal intermittently, mainly when I decided that speaking out wouldn’t help anyone, or just if I needed to sort myself out.

Recently I’ve gone through these documents, and relived some memories I’d completely forgotten about.  I’m going to share them here.  Names will be changed, maybe even places.  To anyone who happens to be part of these posts – just remember, these are a snapshot in time…  You know me now, you know how I feel about you, good or bad.  But if you have any questions – go ahead and drop a line.

I haven’t gotten personal here in a long time, and I think part of finding myself is looking back to acknowledge where I came from.  So, try not to laugh too hard… this is more for me than anyone else – but if you find meaning or comraderie, I’d love to hear it.

Cheers